Its been a month since that fateful day when he got married to her... Since then there had not been a single day that I didnt think of him. but does he ever think of me?

Guess I will never know. Probably the answer is NO he doesnt think of you anymore. He stopped caring smarties... its tough to bear but it is the reality.

Is it so easy to forget a person who did no wrong to you other than being a good friend who was honest and direct? who made an impact on your conscience to do the right thing?
may be having me around reminds you of the wrong you did to me specially at a time when you are trying to build a new life and move on. specially when you took the pains to say your vows in the temple to be faithful to your wife. talking to me and seeing me does it disturb you so much?

I cannot hate someone whom I loved with all my heart.. I may not love you as I used to but I cant get myself to hate you either.

I wish the day I feel indifferent towards you will come close. I want to move on... to find a man who loves me for who I am and what I am. Not for my outer beauty, my riches nor my status in society. I want to find the one who sees the beauty in my heart through my eyes. is that day far off? No its closer than I think...